the phone won...AGAIN!

Although I didn't post yesterday I thought a lot in bed about how my day went. I always think..."tomorrow will be better" & sometimes it is, but most of the time it's not!

I somehow always find something to do and not include the kids - to ecape them. Sure, I find things for them to do...they're not just zoned out & plugged in to the TV...I don't ignore them and their needs are met, but about their other needs? But I want to do more crafts, games, songs and snuggle times just with them! Doesn't that sound fun? I'm constantly trying to keep them quiet, calm & the house tidy - does that sound fun, for them or me?

I'll choose the computer, phone, cleaning...anything! Before you know it the day is done and I've hardly played! I invisioned being a much better housewife & SAHM. But here I am making these choices to stay away and disconnected from them! TODAY I'm choosing them!

So what do I do? Unplug the phone? Computer? Ignore the things that need to be done? I know I'm going to look back some day not too long from now and wish that I had them young again...to delight and take joy in them...my beautiful treasures from God!

God, please be with me today, reminding me of my choices! Help me to enjoy the kids. Help me Jesus in my frustrations. I don't want to be angry...just full of joy! Help me make desicions when it comes to discipline.
Please be with Matthew, give him a wonderful day and that might know how much we miss him when he is at work and how much we appreciate him for the things he does for our family and the love he shows to the kids and I!
I praise you daddy...you are wonderful beyond description and I love that no matter how close or far away I am to you...that you are always there holding me, hugging me. You never move Lord....it's me!

Love Lisa