I'm starting over...

why do I feel like I'm always starting over?

Why don't I follow through?

Why is it not my goal, vision and mission to FULLY follow Jesus?

Am I hot, cold or luke warm? If I'm honest with myself, I'm luke warm....

Today I make a change...a radical change. This change has been needed for a long time now. I hear God telling me to draw close, but I guess I have other things to do.

Today I make the change to CHOOSE how I spend my time. Will it be tv, computer, cleaning etc...or will it be when my sweet children call on me....even if I think they don't really need me....I want to be there for them always....I want them to know that Mommy is always near, watching, listening, cheering, helping and praying for them!

Today I choose to follow my calling. I have been called to be a wife. Not a nag, not a destroyer but LOVING & supportive. I have been called to be a mom. To love, to be kind, gentle & patient. I am to display God's love in my life & to do everything in my power to raise our children to be fully devoted followers of Christ.

I need to have a vision...the Bible says that without vision people perish.

I need to get my relationship back with God....I need to be HOT not cold.

Everyone will end up somewhere with God...I want to end up somewhere ON PURPOSE. I want to hit the target!

This is going to be hard, it will require a lot of effort. BIG changes need to be made....great relationships never happened by accident....

I need to be intentional about my relationship with Jesus...


Please God, help me. Help me to get back to where I need to be, WANT to be with you. It is possible. I love you. I need you, I want to crave you. Help me to desire you the way I should. Amen.

Love Lisa

being in the world....

but not OF the world.

I am really thinking about that this morning and what that means to me.

Where is the line.

Am I crossing it?

What to I do to keep away from that?

Am I being a prude? Is that good? Is it bad? Is it effective?

We'll talk more later.

Lent

So it's the 2nd day of lent. I've never really given anything up for lent before or added something on for these 40 days. I've thought about it a lot this time around and think that it would be a great challenge for me to give something up or to add on. It would help me in refocusing my attention back on Christ. It would help to put things in perspective and to reflect on what Christ has done for me, and what I can sacrifice so that I can be reminded of the price he paid for my sin.
So I tossed around many things to give up that would be a challenge...internet/ computer, chips and even tying my hair back (I know that would be the biggest challenge) then I realized that it would be great to ADD ON. So even though my one word (resolution) is to LOVE ... for lent I would like to really focus on LOVE...being LOVE. I want to live & speak love. I want to also focus on being love life and more importantly being thankful...ever grateful for the blessings I've been given.
I will try to post each day. And finish my blog post with something that I am thankful for.
I pray that these 40 days will be a challenge..and mostly I pray that I will change.

"Create in me a clean heart oh God, and renew a right spirit within me...restore unto me the joy of thy salvation"

I am also challenging myself to read through the book of Proverbs...and also the book "Faith Begins At Home" by Mark Holmen

Thankful for Christ, His love and what it means to me!

It was a bad day....

I was rude, mean and angry to my family.
I was jealous, envious about things.
I have had a spirit of discontentment...even when I can't admit it.
I am comparing the good in other peoples lives and only focusing on the bad in ours.

God, please....work in me, change me, help me!
I know that I have a wonderful beautiful life...the best husband a gal could ask for and 3 wonderful, happy and healthy children...
life really can't get better for me.

....hormones!

p.s. thanks babe for helping me see...God really used you today! You truly are the bestest!

Love Lisa

some project!

who has time for projects anyways?

resolutions?? who keeps those? I know I don't! So....I resolve to REALLY love God! Thats it! My promise is to love God! Everything else should fall into place if I truly LOVE God...right?!?

I know its not going to be easy....but it's working!

I can be a jerk...a big jerk! To my husband, to my kids...even to my parents and poor sister! I'm changing and sometimes...not so much! Thanks for putting up with me! I'm tyring....really I am!

So many things on my mind. What to do with life etc. But you know what? NONE OF IT MATTERS!!! What matters is eternity....where I spend it, where others spend it...and what I DID to help help peole figure it out! Thats it...LOVE GOD! Stop telling people what I believe and start showing people what I believe by LIVING IT!

Work in me Lord...use me

Oh how I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this song.....it always comes to my head!

POTTER'S HAND

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful savior
I know for sure all of my days are held in your hands
Crafted into your perfect plans

You gently called me into your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord to live all of my life
Through your eyes

I'm captured by your holy calling
Set me apart. I know you're drawing me to yourself
lead me, Lord. I pray

Oh Take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the potter's hand

You gently call me into your presence
Guiding me by your holy spirit
Teach me dear lord to live all of my life through your eyes

I'm captured by your holy calling
Set me apart. I know you're drawing me to yourself
lead me, Lord. I pray

Oh Take me, mold me, use me, fill me
I give my life to the potter's hand

Oh Call me, guide me, lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the potter's hand