It's gonna be a great year...

because I'll make sure it is!

The last few days haven't been too bad. I'm trying to find more patience. It's hard to find sometimes.

I love, love, LOVE Christmas...but for some reason it just feels different this year. Maybe it's just me...maybe it's that I won't see any of my extended family this Christmas. I don't know? Matthew and I just need to try hard to make our Christmases special. I keep reminding myself that we have so much to be thankful for. That all 3 of my kids are happy and healthy...that we can be altogether! Praise God for that!

Maybe I feel different this year because it is one of the first years that I've really, really hurt for the hurting...and maybe thats a good thing.

Kids who have nothing, including love.
Sick people.
Poor people.
Moms that are hurting because they are far from their children. Dads too.
People who are searching...knowing that there is something to life that they want, can't find and don't know what it is.

God, please use me. I want to help you rescue your children! Help us, my family to ever be thankful for the blessings upon blessings you give to us...not to take it for granted, EVER.
God, please be with those who need you...may the Holy Spirit work in their lives and they find what they've been looking for...YOU!
God, please give families with sick kids joy this Christmas...knowing you are in control.

Thank you for Matthew...I love him so much and not sure sometimes why he loves me so much! Thank you for his undying love for me and our kids.

And again...I pray for patience...please keep working on me!

Here's to a great day with the kids! A happy day!