I'm starting over...

why do I feel like I'm always starting over?

Why don't I follow through?

Why is it not my goal, vision and mission to FULLY follow Jesus?

Am I hot, cold or luke warm? If I'm honest with myself, I'm luke warm....

Today I make a change...a radical change. This change has been needed for a long time now. I hear God telling me to draw close, but I guess I have other things to do.

Today I make the change to CHOOSE how I spend my time. Will it be tv, computer, cleaning etc...or will it be when my sweet children call on me....even if I think they don't really need me....I want to be there for them always....I want them to know that Mommy is always near, watching, listening, cheering, helping and praying for them!

Today I choose to follow my calling. I have been called to be a wife. Not a nag, not a destroyer but LOVING & supportive. I have been called to be a mom. To love, to be kind, gentle & patient. I am to display God's love in my life & to do everything in my power to raise our children to be fully devoted followers of Christ.

I need to have a vision...the Bible says that without vision people perish.

I need to get my relationship back with God....I need to be HOT not cold.

Everyone will end up somewhere with God...I want to end up somewhere ON PURPOSE. I want to hit the target!

This is going to be hard, it will require a lot of effort. BIG changes need to be made....great relationships never happened by accident....

I need to be intentional about my relationship with Jesus...


Please God, help me. Help me to get back to where I need to be, WANT to be with you. It is possible. I love you. I need you, I want to crave you. Help me to desire you the way I should. Amen.

Love Lisa